The project is a website of a continuation of explorations. Looking into the matrilineal link through preparing, cooking, eating Investigate which links are tampered with, which are broken and what is maintained.

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There is a tradition in Chinese culture to sit at the round table and to feast with your family. Eating happens in multiples, occurs ritually and repeatedly throughout the day. It is an ordinary and necessary event to sustain one's life, yet to me, it became a layered event, with different locations, times of events, and tastes. I have my own archive of photos of my food and handwritten recipes from my mother. I plan to use writing to dissect how each stage of food preparation shows significant layers and sides of my mother's thoughts and personality.

Julietta Singh's No Archive Will Restore You suggests how the body is an archive in itself in some way that resonates with my experience of having to be sent to England and experiencing England as a foreign body. She dismisses the notion of fixating on physical "flaws" that women often tend to magnify. Instead, she seeks something more intricate: a depiction of the body as fragile and open, constantly exchanging signals with the external world. Through this notion, I could connect how food is the substance of exchange between my mother's generational connection and me, as well as her connection with her mother and so on.

In Annie Earneux's Happening, the theme of guilt is prevalent, and the matrilineal link was also disconnected as she sought illegal abortion where it had "killed the mother" in her. When I approach food in a Western manner, in some way, it betrays what my mother had taught, expected or wanted. Boiling up a problem between desire and guilt. Scrolling and looking into the self-produced archive of food blogging since gaining independence living in London, England (2021), I can recall times of guilt from "abadoning" my mother, whether because she is eating by herself after sending her children abroad or whether because I didn't follow the advice she had given, or whether it's because of the food choices I had made.

I was also attracted to "Mindfullmess" by Hanne Lippard, not because of its publication in audio format, but how she lists through numerical order to depict the rigid control of the functions in advertising and language when shaping our connection and disconnection from our bodies. It prompted me to investigate and publish the "ultimate X number of recipes."