"Bodies of Water"
Section MS10, Freya Spencer-Wood
Keywords: identity, moving image, water, performance, landscape, body
When swimming at sea, I perceive my body as an integral part of the landscape. All I feel is the fluidity of the water around my skin and the lightness of my body. Above and below water become landscapes of their own, with different sounds and sights. The horizon - where the sea meets the land and the sky - becomes my point of orientation.
I attempted to document this experience through multiple points of view: a camera on my body capturing what I see and an external camera following me above and below the surface of the water.
When I enter the sea, I close my eyes, take a deep breath and dive below the surface. This immersion initially feels unpleasant but quickly turns into a feeling of hyper-awareness. While submerged, everything goes quiet for a few seconds. All noise, all thoughts. All I feel is the water around my body and my muscles moving. It is a moment of stillness. An intentional act of situating my body in the present. That feels like an intentional act against the disconnection and numbness we experience on a daily basis nowadays.
And yet.
Mediums such as film, have the ability not just to convey a narrative but to also engage the senses and imagination. Self-expression and vulnerability level the room. They cultivate deeper empathy and can lead to self-reflection and awareness. In this case, the room is the space we are in right now. The film is projected vertically, human sized, in order to be at the same level as the viewer.
The sea moves me and makes me feel small. When looking towards the horizon, I am confronted with the vastness of nature. I am reminded of my place in the scale of things. Instead of expressing something about myself, it makes me want to express something about us. About this collective experience we all participate in. And I exist as more than an agent of my own individualism.